Nice....

Should i buy these?, a photo by malyn_mizzunderstood on Flickr.

Bosan betul hidup macam ni

Jangan salah faham. Aku bukan tak tahu bersyukur. Aku bersyukur dengan rezeki yg Allah pinjamkan. Aku tahu aku tak layak untuk semua ni. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir untuk tinggalkan semua ni dan lari jauh-jauh. Jauh sangat. Biar tak ada siapa dapat cari aku. Tapi aku ada tanggungjawab. Aku perlu bertanggungjawab pada hidup seorang gadis muda. Yang hidupnya baru bermula. Aku tak harap dia secekal aku. Aku harap dia tak perlu jadi aku. Sebab bila die secekal aku, hatinya akan jadi batu. Keras. Dingin. Aku tak harap dia begitu.

Aku bosan dengan rutin hidup aku. Kadang-kadang aku rasa bodohnya aku. Aku ada apa yang aku impikan. Masa kecik-kecik dulu aku mau gaji 3ribu. Padaku itu da cukup besar. Sekarang pada usia 24 tahun, gajiku 3ribu. Tapi aku masih lagi termangu-mangu. Bosan betul hidup aku.

Dulu aku kerja teruk-teruk. Sentiasa tak ada masa. Untuk buat apa-apa. Badan asyik penat. Mulut asyik merungut. Kerja. Kerja. Kerja. Sekarang kerja aku macam tak guna. Pergi dan balik saja. Tapi masih lagi aku merungut. Sebab tak tau nak buat apa. Pelik betul aku.

Dulu aku mau punya seorang lelaki yang akan setia bersama aku sampai bila-bila. Yang akan terima aku seadanya. Yang akan teman aku macam orang gila. Sekarang aku dah ada. 7 tahun. Dia gila bersama-sama aku. Tapi aku masih rasa bosan. Bodohnya aku.

Apa lagi agaknya yang aku mau?
Manusia memang takkan puas dengan dunia.

Teaser Part 3

My current DIY, a photo by malyn_mizzunderstood on Flickr.

My Current DIY

LONELY 

 (by 2NE1 - translation)

 

The words I’m saying right now might hurt you
They’ll probably make you hate me forever
You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well
 

You are so kind, you never change
I don’t know I don’t know Why I am like this?
We were so in love, and you’re here now but
I don’t know, I want to find myself now

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive me
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

You didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the strange one
It seems I’ve already been prepared long ago, for our breakup
I really wanted to treat you well, why is it when I’m confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly
 

You are so kind, you never change
I don’t know I don’t know Why I am like this?
We were so in love, and you’re here now but
I don’t know, I want to find myself now

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive me
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

Cuz I’m just another girl
This night is lonely, I can’t take any more, Good bye
Cuz I’m just another girl
I’m so lonely, even though I’m by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely
Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely

* This is how I truly feel.  Its not that I don't love you anymore. I do. I loved you and I still do. But I feel so lonely. And its eating my soul. Its like I'm half-dead. Walking around, laughing out loud, talking with you...but I'm still lonely.....*

Teaser Part 2

Teaser 2, a photo by malyn_mizzunderstood on Flickr.

Sikit2 lama2 jd bukit.hehehe...

Hati....

Andai aku tak ada suatu hari nanti...
Jangan persoalkan kenapa aku pergi
Jangan persoalkan kenapa aku lemah
Jangan persoalkan kenapa aku berubah

Bila suatu saat nanti aku jauh
Aku harap kau sedari
Pengorbanan dan pengertian yang aku beri

Aku ada disini
Menanti, menunggu dan mencintaimu
Apakah kau hargai aku?
Apakah kau cintai aku?

Aku gadis yang lemah
Aku gadis yang biasa
Aku bukan dewi
Aku punya hati

Maafkan aku andai suatu hari aku berhenti mencintaimu..
Mungkin bukan hari ini
Mungkin juga bukan esok
Tapi maafkan aku..


(Rimas - The Fabulous Catz)

Keluhan hatiku tak siapa yang tahu
Ku simpan semua sebak di dada
Biar ku yang terluka
Pernahkah kau mengerti
Caraku memujukmu
Pernahkah kau hargai
Caraku mencintaimu

Lafazan kata dari bibir
Adakah ia dari hati
Mungkin kau tak fahami
Maksud yang tesembunyi
Titisan airmata dari pipi ke bumi
Pernahkah kau peduli betapa sedih diriku ini

Another weekend...

I love this outfit...Too bad FMIL & FSIL can't agree on which one we should choose. End up we have to choose another outfit. Huhu...Should we wear white (again) for bertandang??

Thank you boo-boo...for being a kind, understanding & sweetest fiance I've ever had (not that i had another fiance, of course. Hehe). I really look forward to our future together. But the future really concerns me. Even where we'll live after we're married is still a blur..Haishhh!!! I don't really mind where we'll live as long as I'm with you. Hihi... (gatal!)

Teaser Part 1

Cuba teka?hehe, a photo by malyn_mizzunderstood on Flickr.

My solemnization's doorgift... =)

Aku benci kau

Bila satu hari nanti aku tak ada... adakah kau boleh terima kenyataan?
Bila satu hari nanti aku berubah...mampukah kau terima?

Cinta memang pelik.
Kenapa bila aku sendiri aku tak tahu apa-apa?
Aku benci Cinta.
Dia buat aku lumpuh. Aku tak perlukan ini.

Mak pernah cakap "Hati-hati dengan Cinta. Dia akan buat kau merana"
Aku ikut cakap Mak. Aku tak berkawan dengan Cinta
Tapi satu hari Cinta datang.
Aku tak kawan dengan dia. Tapi dia datang cari aku.
Kenapa?

Aku benci Cinta.
Aku benci ketakberdayaan aku yang buat aku lumpuh.

Bila satu hari nanti kau tak ada...aku akan cuba terima kenyataan
Bila satu hari nanti kau berubah...mungkin aku terima saja.
Aku benci kau.

High School All Over Again...

Taken from here. (Source : Life With Baby Donut)

Why Blogging Can Feel Like High School

Lately I’ve read several posts on various blogs about the difficulty of blogging and gaining followers.  These writers lament the fact that they have been blogging for X amount of time and only have a few followers to show for it.  And I see this same sentiment expressed by bloggers who have 50 followers, as well as those who have 500 followers.  We all want the same thing:  To be noticed, to be appreciated, to be LOVED, dammit!

And we all want to be the most popular kid around.That’s why blogging is analogous to the feelings we had in high school.

We want to be the kid with the designer clothes

I know we all look at everyone else’s blogs and wonder how they got that fabulous look.  We start comparing our own blog and suddenly it feels like ours is yesterday’s designers discount.  We want the trendy and expensive $200 jeans, not the $30 knock-off we picked up at TJMaxx.  We try designing our own or hiring a fancy graphic artist, but there is always someone more trendy than us.

We want to be the cheerleader that all the football players want to date

You know, you want to be the “It” girl—the blog to which everyone flocks.  The blog that everyone talks about with oohs and aahs.  We want to be admired and be the blog that makes people say, “What’s she got that I don’t?”

We want to be the Homecoming Queen

Just look at your local TV listing to see what award is being handed out this week.  We’re surrounded by award shows.  Every year we watch the Oscars, the Emmys, the Super Bowl.  Someone, somewhere is being crowned with some type of recognition.  Just once (or maybe twice!), we want to be handed the prize while everyone else claps for us.  

We want to be voted Best All-Around

We’ve seen the blogs that do it all:  the moms who take fabulous pictures, make amazing meals, grow their own food, thresh their own grain.  They have 8 kids, all of whom are clean and take naps.  Their houses look like they belong in a home decorating magazine.  Not only do they do it all, but they do it all spectacularly well.  We also want to be the ones who can do it all and make it look easy—all in front of an online audience, of course!

We want to hang with the cool kids

Oh what we wouldn’t give to be on the “Blogs I Love” list of some of the biggest bloggers.  How awesome would it be to rub shoulders with them and be their BFF?  We want to go to their cool pool parties and eat at their table in the cafeteria.  Being acknowledged by them somehow makes it feel like we’ve arrived, that we belong.

So why do we do this blogging thing?  Why put ourselves out there and then feel disappointed when our blogs don't get the attention we feel they deserve?  I have my own perspective on this which I'll share later, but first, tell me yours.  Why are we doing this?

LDR - Long Distance Relationship

I hate our LDR. Why? Because I always miss him. And he's always working. Day & nite. Its not easy, these LDR. We managed to go through 5 years together & 2 years apart. These LDR is killing me!

I love him. And I trust him. I have my faith in him. But I'm just human. I do feel lonely when he's not around. I do feel jealous seeing other couple. I do wonder if he's thinking of me when I'm thinking of him... And the saddest part is he doesn't even mind that we're apart.

I'm just human. And I'm weak.... =(

My wedding gown

Weddings, a photo by malyn_mizzunderstood on Flickr.

I find idea & sketch this for about 30mins. theheheeeeeee.... ;)

Love.... Episode 1

Conversation dengan my besties these 2 days revolves around love & men. Nape lelaki cuma nampak superficial things when they first met a girl? Its not fair rite? Kadang2 lelaki cuma nampak perempuan yg cantik, manja, lemah lembut...but plastik! Nape lelaki tak boleh get past that and realize that there's another girl..silent, humble..yet strong and witty. If only they can look through all those superficial and external factors. Don't they understands that the best girls won't stick out that obvious? That's why we're called dime in a dozens.

Don't get me wrong. I'm sure his love for me is not superficial or plastic. Why? Because he met me when I'm at my worst. Mentally and physically. And he stick around and shape me into what I am. Today.


Sejak zaman belajar lagi I'm surrounded by girls, all type of girls. But there's one type of girl that are always around no matter where you are. The one who always complaint, " Bile la aku nak dapat boyfriend ni", "I'm such a loser. Why can't I have a man?", " Nape takde orang nak kat aku? Teruk sangat ke aku ni?"

Well girlfriends...in life you must believe in "Jodoh". Semuanya dah di tentukan Allah. Jangan persoalkan keje Dia. Allah takkan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum melainkan mereka berusaha mengubahnya sendiri... Get it? Kadang2 Allah bagi kita peluang utk dapat kan jodoh tu. Tapi oleh kerana kita rasa diri kita terlalu bagus utk orang tu, kita biarkan die pegi... Pernah tak korg terfikir pasal tu?

Kadang2 oleh kerana kita ni terlalu bagus, kita cuma nak orang yg setaraf dengan kita. Even a simple flaws is not acceptable. Just because of one simple flaws, you rejected him. You did not even give him a chance to prove himself. Please... I don't believe in love at first sight. First sight is lust. Superficial. External. You need to know a person to love him/her.

Its not fair to tell me " Ko boleh la...da ade bf,da tunang, da nak kawen...". You are not there when we go through these 7 years together. You don't have the slightest idea of how we met, how we fell in love, how we survived these 7 years. Its not fair to blame me for your loneliness!

I did not fall in love with him expecting him to be perfect. Because I know I'm not perfect. I did not fall in love with him despite of his flaws. I fell in love with him because of his flaws. I fell in love with him because I know we're boht not perfect. But we're perfect for each other. We're perfect when we're together.

You don't have the right to say.. "Ko lain la..Tunang ko boleh tahan, dress up pun ok.." Do you know how he's like 7 years ago? Don't reject a guy because of the way he dress,the way he laugh, the way he speak, the way he walks...because its superficial. Its not fair for you to say that when you kept complaining how men only look at superficial things. People can change with time...

Lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik. Remember that. External things won't give you happiness. If you keep searching for the perfect guy..you might not realize when the right guy walks away from your life

P/s : I love you boo-boo. For everything that you were, are and everything that you'll ever be.. =)

Our monograms

Its us!!!

Well...its mainly me (malyn a.k.a amalina). This is our personal blog. Where we'll share everything that happens in our love and life. It not a continuation from my previous blog : My Journey Through Everything Nice but it is merely parallel to what happens in that blog.

We (or actually me) decided to open this blog so that we can scribbled everything (and i really mean, EVERYTHING). My previous blog will focus more on our journey towards our wedding (and its preparation) but this blog will record everything that happens in between and after that!

Well.... JUST ENJOY! =)